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23rd Feb, 2008

How very whiney...


10th Oct, 2006

A Space to Fill

I've hit the wall and this time I can't break though
My wings have been scarred motionless, they won't work like they used to,
But the worst part is I don't know what to do.
My head's filled with these landmines that I buried in the past,
It's time for me to be honest with myself if I'm to last.

I'm no longer who I used to be but I still don't know who I am
I thought this new beginning would be the start of a new man
There's something missing in my life but I don't know what it is
I feel so alone with these four words just ringing in my ears;
What do I do?

It's time I uncovered the real me to the world
It's useless me just laying here, my voice needs to be heard,
But first I have to find the words to say.
I know I've been a burden to you, and I know you won't admit that
Now I have a space to fill, no time to kill,
I've gotta get things back on track.

I'm not as happy as I used to be and I can't figure out why
So many questions I need answers to, I can't change if I don't try.
There's people that I care about more than I ever should,
But these four words stop me from helping like I always would
What do I do?

How cool...

Does this look:

This was one project of three. Obviously you won't know what's different if you didn't see it before, but it looks nice now.

Yeah. I'm cooler than you. Gay.

8th Oct, 2006

Here is gone

Went to see the Goo Goo Dolls again on Friday! Fecking awesome gig, even better than last time. The light show was brilliant and they were pretty lively on stage. The support band were pretty damn awesome too. Last time I saw the Goos I was gutted they didn't play Here Is Gone (one of my favourite songs ever), but they did it this time so I'm happy! I got a few photos and couple of nice videos too for my viewing pleasure.

Apart from that, just had work yesterday. I got four KRINK mops in the post for yet another little project. I'll put pics when they're done. At the moment I'm just learning a few songs for various things in school - House Rock is coming up soon. Also, I've found myself listening to Lily Allen. Not the kind of thing I'd expect to be in my CD player, but it's surprisingly great.

I'm stuck deciding what I'm doing for my birthday this year. I'm going to see Muse the day after (fuck yes) but I'm thinking it'd be nice to go out with my friends before. Ah well, we'll see.

I want some people to put a smile on my face.

1st Oct, 2006

Solder burns hurt...

Like a bitch. I was fixing a few leads and a guitar tuner this morning, and after spending ages (and I mean ages) soldering wires onto the circuit board for the tuner, burning my fingers in the process, my dad steps on the thing literally five minutes later and breaks the screen! Nice one.... At least all the leads remained unharmed.

A little catch-up time now.

I haven't posted in a while since I've been insanely busy. Another performance in Music is out the way now, and things are getting better.  Yeah I know, I know, I moaned and moaned about how rubbish school was. It was. It's not anymore. I actually look forward to it. I'm crazy, right?

Anywho, next week is set to be pretty damn awesome. Seeing the Goo Goo Dolls on Friday in Cambridge. And, my Muse tickets came yesterday. Yes, things rock. On top of that, I'm going to see John Mayer next month. By myself apparently. There's bound to be loads of screaming girls there. I'll be one of them.

Well come on, John Mayer is fit.

On the subject of John Mayer, I got his new album Continuum last week. You HAVE to listen to it. Why, you ask? Because he's one of the few artists who can go from style to style, and pull it off. This one's a mix of upbeat soul and blues ballads, and there's a touch of everything else in there which means there's something for everyone. The thing that annoys me about John Mayer? He says everything I want to say, in a way I wish I could. I don't know what it is, but the words just fit with me perfectly. Oh, and his cover of Bold As Love is amazing (which, on a side note, is a Hendrix album we all should own). As for the CD, it was sent with a nice hole drilled through the case/sleeve. Silly man.

My cousins were here this weekend, they left a couple of hours ago. When they suggested going to the cinema last night, I was hoping we'd go see something happy, maybe funny. But no, that's not how it was going to be. They made me go see World Trade Center (excuse the American spelling). I'll admit it wasn't the happiest movie I've ever seen, but it was eye-opening in many ways. It's not a film focused on terrorism, or Islam, or the government, or conspiracies. Those things can be left to people with too much time on their hands. It's about two survivors (one of which is Nicholas Cage, but that doesn't matter here), and what they go through. It' shows the good in people who struggled through the whole thing. It's kind of easy to forget how bad it really was. Don't believe me? Scroll through this. It's longer than you'd think.

Enough of that. Tomorrow is my CCF field day. I get to go and play army until 5pm. It's better than it sounds. Honest.

I got a roll of black vinyl in the mail this morning. It's for a little project I'm conspiring. What's that you say? You'll see, you'll see...

14th Sep, 2006

Stressed out!

I'm incredibly stressed out right now.

Why you ask? Well, for a start I've had a ridiculous amount of work to do tonight. My oddball maths teacher decided a cock slap in the face wouldn't be enough this week so he set us loads of work to do on the same night that my other maths teacher (yes, the fit one) set us loads too. COCK.

Also, I had a music A level performance today, and I'd only started the piece on Monday. It went alright, lots of room for improvement though. It was cool watching the others. Saw a rather lengthy rendition of Master of Puppets (played on a telecaster, why oh why...), and also there's an amazing drummer in my set who played an wicked solo.

Oh, and best of all, I have to learn four songs for a pretentious rock competition at school, by tomorrow. Not really gonna happen. Every little thing is setting me off right now.

When did I become so emo?

This has been a pretty rubbash week in general. So much work, so little time, so much to annoy me. Last night was pretty wicked though. Went bowling with the leg-ends from work, as Zoe is buggering off to uni tomorrow. I got stuck on the lane with all the girls, and only just won.

Oh, and Kieran's a pervert.

Right, I'm off to go Slow Dancing in a Burning Room.

6th Sep, 2006

Come back Alan, you wanker!...

I had all four subjects in school today. Fuck me was it bad. As it happens, I was meant to be in all the sets I wanted to be in with all my friends. Since I swapped one of my subjects though, my whole timetable got rearranged and now I'm not with any of my friends, and 3/4 of my subjects pretty much suck it seems. Music looks like the most daunting thing I can imagine. I'm regretting changing, and I reconsidered switching it all back, but I think I'm gonna rough it out. I came home from school today pretty depressed. I've been that way a lot recently. I don't know what's the matter with me really. I'm generally an extremely happy person, but lately, stuff just sucks.

That is so emo.

, I've just been watching a few episodes of Modern Toss. Great stuff! I'd check it out on YouTube, especially the Alan videos. Also, I'm going to see The Contrast on Friday night. What's better is, I know both the support bands too. I'm gonna try for a song dedication from each...

Innit boz..

5th Sep, 2006


Today was my first real day of school. I say that, but I only had one lesson, which was double maths. Our teacher is fit. She's new, I can't actually remember her name. There's only one girl in our set, which is pretty unfair on her really.

Aside from that, today's been pretty shite. Just got bored out of my mind most of the time, and I'm not in a good mood.

On a completely unrelated note, I'll give £100 to the person who can give me a rational explanation as to why women are so selfish and moody sometimes.


4th Sep, 2006

Back to school...

So, today was the first day back at school. It wasn't really school as such, but it was sixth form induction day. Basically the day was, meet form teachers, piss about, walk around. There was also a random exercise of creating a parachute that would bring an egg down to safety when thrown out of the window. I left the deigning part to the rest of my form in exchange for being the one who got to throw it out. Needless to say, it didn't go so well. And that was our second egg. Some idiot actually managed to break the first egg while drawing on it in the class room. Assclown.

I get my timetable tomorrow. Hopefully I get cool teachers, and decent sets.

Bye for now

3rd Sep, 2006

Panic! At the Northfields pub...

Well, what can I say. The gig last night was amazing a complete disaster. Thanks to the rubbishness of the pub we didn't have speakers, so we put the microphone through a bass amp. Long story short, when we turned it up (because Matt can't sing that loud) the thing started screeching like a deranged monkey. So thanks to feedback issues, we went off after two songs. What makes it even more ridiculous, is that after it was all over, the stupid woman told us they did have a PA (speakers) which would have been perfect. Morons. For what it's worth, the songs we did do were pretty good considering we had a total of about an hours practice. I wasn't bothered by the whole thing. I actually thought it was pretty funny...

On a different note, I start school again tomorrow. I'm excited about the change. I just need to get all my stuff sorted by then!

(Reading update blatantly isn't going to happen)

1st Sep, 2006

Rock on bitches!....

Funny story. I was walking around downstairs this morning, pizza was in the oven, I had John Mayer blasting from the CD player, when suddenly the phone rings. My friend Matt tells me some friends of his need a support act. I think it'd be great and naturally I agree, but then he tells me it's TOMORROW NIGHT. Crazy bastard. We'll be playing 7 songs that we haven't even practiced together so it's a disaster waiting to happen, but I'm sure it'll be a laugh. I'll get some pictures hopefully.

Okay, so I lied. The story wasn't funny. Get over it.

In other news, I've been up all night clipping out the ridiculously annoying radio ads from the recording I made of John Mayer's brand new album Continuum when he played it in it's entirety on the radio. It's an awesome album, can't wait till it's out.

I'll do the Reading update when I have more time, it'll be a long one. Pictures will be up too.


A new era...

Yes, that's right. After almost an entire year of nothing, I'm starting this thing up again, because the blogging on MySpace is pretty wank.

To catch up:

It's the end of Summer. School starts again on Monday. I'm actually really looking forward to it. It's a huge change this time, as I'm going into sixth form. For my A levels I'm doing Music, Music Technology, Maths and English. A pretty random combination, but I'm planning on working my way into Berklee.

I got my GCSE results back a week or so ago. 4 A*s, 6As. Sounds pretty good, but I cocked up the ones I should be best at. Ah well, shit happens.

I'll do another update all about Reading Festival in a bizzle. Right now I'm having a mini rave in my room!


8th Sep, 2005

I got a job!

I got a job in my local music shop! I'm so happy, it'l like the greatest job ever. School has started for the last few days, and it's actually amazing! I'm in a pretty good mood right now. I've just been ordering stuff off play.com. On a side note, I'm going to fail my Spanish GCSE.

5th Sep, 2005

School sucks monkey balls...

I have school tomorrow. It sucks. I really need to do my coursework by then! In other news, I no longer have to save up for a guitar since my parents said they'd buy me one next year anyway! Oh, and I got an A in my French GCSE, which I think is pretty shit to be honest. It's French! Should've been an A*.

8th Aug, 2005

I have an excuse this time okay!....

I haven't updated this in ages, BECAUSE...I've been on holiday! I went for India for 2 weeks,a nd it was the most fun I've had in ages! Going out getting smashed with my cousins was mental, and did some shopping while I was there. Not much else has been happening, so nothing else to say really. I need to find a job! I really need money for a new guitar.

8th Jul, 2005

Yeah I know....

I forgot to update for ages...again! Anyway, school is over so I'm on holidays now! I should remember to do this more often now, since I dont' really have anything better to do. I'm going to see Alter Bridge AGAIN in November (wooo!!), and should be going to see Muse as soon as they start their tour.

7th Jul, 2005

London Terrorist Attacks

As you'll probably know, London was hit today by terrorists. Thoughts go out to the victims and their families. Luckily everyone I know in London was okay. What is the world coming too...

16th Jun, 2005

Dream Theater rule!!!

I haven't been at school today, so I've just been listening to Dream Theater all day. They rock!!!

15th Jun, 2005

School is almost over!

I'm missing school tomorrow, and I have no idea why. My parents just said "why don't you not go?" Anyway... My crazy cousin's here. We're watching CSI for some reason. I got a webcam! Finally. I'm really broke right now. I seriously need some money... There's only 3 more weeks of school, thank god. I can't wait till the summer. There's a girl I'm crazy about, but that's another story...

12th Jun, 2005


I went to Download festival yesterday!!! Greatest day ever!!! I saw Black Sabbath, Velvet Revolver, Trivium, some others. Most importantly, I saw my favourite band in the world, Alter Bridge!!! And not only did I get to watch them perform, I met them!! Got their autographs and shook all their hands, and got photographs! Shaking Mark Tremonti's hand was the greatest experience of my life!

1st Jun, 2005

Stupid ticket ordering...

I got my Download festival ticket this morning. I was meant to be going on Saturday next week. Turns out I bought a ticket for Friday instead! I rang them up, and since it isn't sold out, they said they'd exchange it for a Saturday ticket. I have to post it tomorrow morning. I would'nt miss Alter Bridge for the world :p Work was awesome today. I know how to use the tills now, so I was selling stuff etc. I'm really getting the hang of it now. They have some awesome guitars in that shop. My carpet was changed in my room today, and when we put everything back in we rearranged it all so my room looks different, but bigger. I might actually be able to fit my amp in there now!

31st May, 2005


I had my first day of work experience at the music shop today. It wasn't bad. The first thing I did was vacuum the whole shop, which sucked, but after that I just sorted the guitars, which was fun. The people there are really cool. I should be doing more "interesting" things tomorrow.

30th May, 2005

Back to stay....hopefully...

I decided I'm actually going to start updating this thing properly. So here's a little catch up:

I got prefect
I did awesome in my exams
I'm on holidays
This summer is going to rock

I'll post something more interesting as it happens.

26th Apr, 2005

Forgotten again...

Helooooo! Haven't updated this in AGES, as usual... Anyhooo, I ordered a new Live headset since mine broke ages ago and I've finnaly got sick of the sticky tape. Should be coming soon! :) I had a prefect interview today, went AMAZING! Fingers crossed...

18th Mar, 2005

Good times coming...

My computer is a recording studio!! I have a mic stand and a prety crap mic. I really should get a better one. Recording is so much fun! I have my GCSE French Oral exam on Monday. I think I'll do alright. An A* shouldn't be too difficult to get. I finally got that Goo Goo Dolls Live In Buffalo DVD! It's completely awesome. I can't remember the last time I played my Xbox. I just don't have the time anymore. I had my GCSE music performance exam, and got full marks pretty easily. My cousin's coming this weekend!! Some crazy stuff is bound to happen.

28th Feb, 2005

Wow that's big!

Yay! I got my new amp FINALLY! It's pretty big, but not too big, and it sounds AMAZING! I have to give a presentation tomorrow about how rock music has changed over the past couple of decades. I odn't really know what to say.

24th Feb, 2005

I keep forgetting...

I been lacking with the updates AGAIN. Anyway, my two-man band is pretty much official now. After looking through some absolutely ridiculous names we came up with (McChicken and the Scissor Brother are only but a couple) we've pretty much settled on "Totally Anonymous", I think. It's mum's birthday tomorrow. I got an awesome card. I need to go to Leicter to by a new guitar amp. Maybe this weekend.

26th Jan, 2005

Homework sucks

I got my guitar back yesterday finally! My performance went perfectly. I have a lot of homework. I hate the stuff. I might be going to see Alter Bridge in March. It depends if I can get to London or not.

24th Jan, 2005

I miss my guitar...

I'm doing my English coursework. This is quite possibly the most annoying piece of work ever. I've been looking for the Goo Goo Dolls Live in Buffalo DVD but I can't find it anywhere. I don't want to have to order it from America. If anyone knows where I can find it, please tell me. I can't play my guitar because it's being repaired still. I gave it in on Thursday, and the guy said it would be ready tomorrow or Wednesday. Hopefully it's tomorrow, because I need it for Wednesday.

23rd Jan, 2005

At last

This is the first update in a long time. My cousin was here for the holidays. We did all sorts of crazy shit, but I can't be bothered to go into details. I did an acoustic performance at someones house. Some fun shit. I have so much coureswork. It bugs me! I've had nothing to do the whole day. Sundays suck.

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